Friday, February 7, 2014

Wait. Hope. Expect.

Throughout this pregnancy, I have been so incredibly thankful. I am still so thankful for this miracle. At the same time, my heart aches for those of you who are longing, aching and desperately praying for a miracle of your own. I am praying for y'all for sure. Some people don't realize how difficult infertility can be. It can be wretched at times. These pictures described my heart fairly well.

This summed it up for me in one sentence. Ever since I was very little, I wanted to be a mommy. I truly believe motherhood is a calling for me and always has been. I know some of you may feel exactly the same way.

I also found quite funny posts, like this one. "How rude!"
Sometimes while going through the journey of waiting for a baby, you feel like this. People sometimes asked us, "So...when are y'all gonna have a baby?" I know for sure that some people did not mean anything by it at all. But at the same time, I wanted to say, "Oh, I know exactly when. It will be on November 5th at 3:45 a.m." HAHA! I know some of you can relate.
If I did not have my faith and trust in the Lord, it would have been much harder for us to wait.

This verse in 1 Samuel brought me much comfort because it's so authentic and true. Coming from a faithful follower of Christ.

Psalm 5:3 was probably my favorite because the Lord kept bringing it to my mind and heart soon before we found out the good news in August. :)

There is definitely hope! Don't lose hope! I want y'all to know that if you are going through infertility, my heart goes out to you. I am not going to forget about you. Those of you who have shared with me your longing to be a mother, whether through email, or if you are a personal friend of mine. I am praying for you!

Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26


Becky said...

My oldest daughter always wanted to be a mom. I grieved for her as her siblings and friends began to have children and she struggled with infertility. She always handled it with such grace and sweetness. One day, God said, 'Yes!' 'Yes' 'Yes'. After her first IVF, we thought she may be pregnant with twins and I will never forget the day she called me at work and said, 'Mom, there were not two heartbeats, there were three'. There will never be a chance for anymore biological children, so they are praying that an adoption situation will come along if it is the Lord's will.